The last journal entry I wrote was pathetic because I was in a hurry, so I'm writing a new one. I'm being honest when I say that the more I look at my past "artwork," even the realistic ones, the more I hate them. The title of this is what goes on in my mind as I cringe at the lack of proportion and atrocious shading. I shouldn't have so arrogantly refused to take art classes of any kind, because the result is that I have not improved at all for the past 3 years and am going nowhere. I think that's a signal that I should stop drawing, because it's just going to be a huge waste of time. No, don't try to convince me otherwise, because if I wanted you to I would have posted this on Facebook. My friends there would insist what a great artist I am, but here, people will be honest and tell me that I am right. The truth is, I cannot compare to other people my age, and the best thing to do now would be to stop wasting time, energy, and space on DA that can be used by actually talented people. I'm sorry I'm already the graphic artist of the school newspaper; everyone will just have to tolerate my pieces of crap for the rest of the year. I'm sorry for ruining the newspaper just so I can write something that looks good on my college application. I'm sorry for not realizing my lack of talent/skill sooner, and for a time forcing everyone to look at and praise something that deserves scorn.